Sublime says: Sleeping by yourself at night can make you feel alone

Well it looks like i am going back to not being able to sleep
maybe it is nerves about my interviews tomorrow
maybe it is the cappaccino i had at 10pm
maybe i am afraid to sleep cause i know how sore i will be in the morning
from the workout i did tonight
maybe i am just lonely
it could be any one of those
all i know is that i have been laying in bed for the last hour and a half
without sleep coming
i could also be thinking
about all the things i need to do tomorrow
who knows
I do know i could use a hug
some comforting
maybe even a gentle kiss
maybe in my dreams tonight :)


and then thursday is St. Patty's Day
big plans!!
i told myself that i was going to lay off the drinking
and i really mean it
i cant afford it
and it is just getting a little much
but i guess that will have to wait
til after thursday
after that i will be DD for a while
just call me Ali's Taxi service
and i wont even charge anyone who needs a ride :)


Scary to think that i might have a real job soon
at least it scares me
at least a little
i sure as hell dont feel like i am grown up
i still want to just chill and hang
sometimes i feel like i am 5 yrs old
other times i feel like i am about 13 and just want to giggle about boys
well i guess i do that anyways
ha ha never too old for that right
is there such thing as a mid twenties crisis?
i dont think there is and i am not even mid twenties yet
ohh well
guess i will try to sleep somemore
but wish me luck tomorrow!!