Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my opened mind

Well there have been a lot of things going on
friends in town that i have not seen in a while
dealing with roommate stuff
partying a bit too much
going to be laying off that
working out again
applying for jobs
going to interviews
hanging out in the city
good things and things i have to do
more than anything right now i am wanting to find a job so that i am not feeling so poor
and it looks like i might even have the opportunity to have a real job
two interviews in Sac tomorrow
which is good
means that i dont have to move and i can stay around here
if i want when my current lease is up
and i could even moonlight bartending here if i wanted the extra cash
besides that would be fun


sometimes i am amazed by people
sometimes i think that no one else feels like i do
but had a conversation with a close friend today
and realized that she feels the same way
and does some of the same things i do to compensate
i just want to be happy
and not that i am really unhappy
but it baffles me how i can feel so unsatisfied with things
sometimes i just sit and wonder how long this will last


ohh if i do get one of these jobs i will get to buy cute professional clothes
:-D