Long day

well i opened the restaurant
which means that i had to be there at 5:30
but i got up extra early(4am)
so that i could try to work on my paper
which didnt work out to well
i was worried about my dad
they did tests today
found out about it right after work
i was still there eating
I dont like to let people see me when i cry
but everyone got a little dose of that today
Really glad that they were there though
everyone was really nice
Katherine and Amamda even drove me home
Thank you so much girls
it ment a lot to me
nice to know i have people that care
Saw my dad in the hospital
i guess he is better than yesterday
still really hard to see him like that
I am so worried
just want someone to wrap me up in their arms
tell me it will be ok
maybe even just kiss my forhead while i cry
dont want to cry
have to hold it together here
**sigh**


need to sleep these 19 hour days are no good
want to wait until the next test gets back though
dont know when that will be
sorry i am such a downer