I'm an Idiot

sometimes i dont know what the fuck it going on
do you ever have those points where you think one thing
but then totally second guess yourself
and get all self consious about it
yeah i tend to do that alot
especially with guys
and then i think the best course of action is to just make a total and utter ass of myself
which i have been doing a lot of lately
in front of this guy at work
i am not even sure if he is interested or just being friendly
probably just being nice is all it is
which makes me sad cause i am really attracted to him
which has not happened with anyone for a while
a long while
but of course i am just going to sit back and not do anything about it
yeah im an idiot
which has become my mantra lately
i am going to try to cut back on the idiocy
is that a word
i dont know
well i should really be doing some work
since that is where i am
so i am off to walk around the resaurant
come and visit me!!